fathers teach their daughters how to love
they set the bar for the relationships to come
mine taught me that my body is all i need to be enough
so the boys must care about me because they wanna fuck
when they look at me and want something deeper
something past the exterior
i am confused and i am hurt
the boys must not care about me because they don’t wanna fuck
my body is not my own and it hasn’t been for some time
but i don’t mind
i don’t want it to be mine
i want the boys to use me and tell me i’m fine
i know this isn’t real love
and i wonder if i will ever know what that’s like
but i thank my father
for teaching me how to please the boys and hate myself every night
LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS 